what was I thinking!!!!

-taking on not only a new job but one I have absolutely no experience doing
-going back to school while working fulltime and having a house full of teenagers
-changing churches
-getting involved in ministry again
What time is this to begin all of this...This is God's time and He will see to it that the things He will not have me do fall by the way side and the things that are of Him will grow to become what is His will. I travel through this part of my life and have more contentment and joy then I think I have every known all the while feeling inadequate to do any of it. I know from my years of reading the bible that God is great at taking those that feel inadequate and doing great works through them. As I am traveling a path that I KNOW is God breathed I can only think oh God please hold me up, please give me the strength, don't let go of me because I will fall on my own. Inadequate means unsuitable. Satan is playing with my mind right now by saying "how can I think I am suitable for the things set before me". I have his answer in the promises of God's word. Isaiah 40:31 says But those who wait on the LORD shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings of eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not be faint. This is just one of many scriptures that I can claim as I walk through what I feel inadequate to walk through. I don't like the refining but I know I always love the blessing and ability to glorify God on the otherside of the fire. So, the answer to what was I thinking? I was thinking okay God I am jumping on your back as you carry me through the fire and by the way thank you for caring enough to not only refine me but carry me!!!!