Why is it that I am almost forty and now..

I have finally figured out what it is God would have me do with my life. Are you ready? If you know me well you might think well no duh but for me it wasn't so visiable. Here it goes...I desire to talk for a living. That's right get paid to talk. Seems logical I am very good at it, so why did it take so long for me to find it? Here is my thoughts on it; my stupid self esteem. For those of you who have known me from my late 20's on may not know this but I am shy. No, really I am. I know it is hard to believe but that is because I pray regularly for God to give me the strength to push onward to what I love; you know talking. There was a time that the thought of going somewhere anywhere alone for the first time would cause me to want to throw up. So, how is God moving me through that rock in your stomach, cold sweat, light headed gonna puke place. He kept moving me; moving me everywhere all the time. Off the top of my head I would say no less then 60 times in my 39years + 365 days -22 days. Hint: my birthday is Feb 16th. I will be fabulously 40. Now back to my discovery. My family, they have always known I was a talker. They gave me names like jabber jaws and played 45 records (for those younguns that is what we used to listen to music on ) with songs like "You talk to much". So, here I am on the road to discovery and next I am wondering how the heck do I land that job that allows me to get paid to talk. Now, I am not talking about being a teacher kind of talking but more like you pay to see me speak at the Amway Arena talking. Well, for now I am back in school working on my degree in Psychology, seems logical to know all about the people I want to listen to me talk. I have all sorts of books flying around in my head but heck if one of them can find the exit to get out on the paper (or computer) so I can then tour the world and talk about that book. That is right the world, if I am going to dream of talking it is going to be everywhere and anywhere God leads me. You see I am all about following where He leads me because I tried it on my own and I just seemed to be wandering these past 40 years -22days. And shoot I stepped in a lot of poo along the way. Hey, didn't Moses do that wandering thing and look what he accomplished when He let God lead. Watch out world God has me and is going to do His mighty works through me. Stick around, keep checking in you never know what He will have me say from here. And don't forget Feb 16th is when I become fabulous don't miss it.
Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?" And I said, "Here am I. Send me!" Isaiah 6:8